Watching the leaves change

.... is what I'm doing today.

Enojoy. The. Moment.

It won't last forever

Midterms!!! Can't believe that Fall is in full swing and giving me tons of reasons to wish that it was summer again... oh me oh my.

I used to think that following my dreams was the most important thing that you could do in life, so I would pursue them with vigor and ease, but now, I'm lost in a cold, dark reality. How am I coping? Lots of TV, Facebook, and late night movies (this basically means I have a chronic headache). According to everyone else, nursing, and TCC is my destiny. If I'm fulfilling my purpose then why do I feel so unfulfilled? It doesn't add up.

I was talking to an old friend yesterday and realized that it's time for some soul searching. What if I'm in the wrong place?

There is a school in California that sounds just perfect for me. I'm thinking about applying next year. I only have one life, i want to live it right. How do i know what's right? I need answers, I need an open door. I want something more than average, more than normal, more than fine.

My life is important, I am not a nobody floating around the world voiceless and aimless. I am who I am for a reason. Is this pride? No! It's the truth, and not just for me but for every person. You are who you are for a reason! Life is not supposed to be waking up each day hoping that tomorrow will be better, or that your big break will come soon. Take your opportunity now! Don't wait for everyone else to change, you change first.

This is my life, it's my choice and my responsibility to make it count.

Now... its back to the books

The story of my life

I always thought it would be fun to write about all my adventure as a kid. The scrapes and scrapples and all the different aspects that growing up brings. So, here it goes...

The first big even in my life happened before I was even born. My mom, very prego with me, was alone in our little farm house doing the things that good house wives do while her other children were playing outside.

Heather, my oldest sister, her friend and my brother Stephen were playing in the barn, and it being winter thought it was just a bit chilly and decided to turn on the heater . Well, apparently the turbo heater was just a little close to the insulated walls of the barn... and yes, the barn caught on fire.

it started out as a small little fire, but as it traveled up the wall the trio began to get a bit agitated, they ran to the door to get out and found that it was stuck... it wouldn't open for anything! Apparently it was a bit tricky to open. trapped inside a burning building with nobody within calling distance turned from a horrible situation to a panic! 3 year old Stephen decided to give his try at the door ( yes he is still the stable, level headed one of the family), and what do you know... it got it open!

They raced to the house to tell mom, who didn't believe them. She told them to stop goofing round and go play. By the time they finally convincing her that it was really on fire, had her panic attack and finally got a hold of the fire department and my dad ( there weren't cell phones back then), the barn burned to the ground.

If you go back to that old house now, you can still see some bricks and the foundation of that burnt down barn. We build another one and eventually all the things we lost were replaced. But we still tease my sister about being an arson every once in a while.

The moral of the story -- 6 year old should not play with turbo heaters.