ok, (yeah i know I start out 95% of my post the same way...) so here I am once again overwhelmed by the amount of  things I have to do and the amount of time that I have to do them in. I have clinicals tomorrow which require me to finish my care map and drug cards and head to the hospital with in the next 1/2 hour to find out my pt for tomorrow. *sigh* I always freak out on Tuesdays. Next week I'm going to have everything done ahead of time! Oh wait! next week is thanksgiving! oh the joys oh the joys! CAN'T FREAKING WAIT!

My stress level lately has topped my previous high score. Whenever my stomach hurts I'm afraid it's an ulcer. i need to start slowing down and planning things better! I used to think blogging was just a waste of time, then I realized how glad I'm going to be to have it later down the road when I want to remember all these fun little tid bids about my life that I can't remember.

Ok... so now the really exciting news.. I'm going to Ecuador! i know, I can't believe it either! and to top it off, I'm going to the same Indian tribe that Jim Elliot was killed by and Elizabeth Elliot was a missionary to after her husband died! I watch end of the spear just a bit again and I bawled like a baby! oh my word, it's amazing and so powerful the story of these men's lives. It's unbelievable that these things happen. I thought of my Aunt Barb and her being kidnapped in Guatemala and tears just ran down my face because for some reason giving it all for Christ never seemed more real. Can i do that? Will I do that? Do I care enough that people are going to hell that I would risk my life to go and show them somthing greater? I thought about how we raise money for missions trips and spend thousands on plan tickets and costs to go to other countries,  are we being wise stewards of what is being entrusted to us! It's not a game, it's not for social reasons that we go on these trips it's not for fun, there's a serious call. If you decided to go, then you had better be ready to sacrifice, be ready to give it all.  Don't waste the money that others have sacrificed to help send you on these trips. Make it worth it.

That is all.